Miracle

It was been a long time I did not see him. He always spent his days in Alaska and never came back. I thought he was so busy and forgot everything in here but I was wrong. My brother loved to be next to our mom and, I was sure, he would never keep the distance more than one metre. It looked silly to know my brother’s mom lovers although that was what I thought everyday when I saw him near with mama. Perhaps, I just worried.

I stepped back to take more space between us, my brother and me.  He was better with mama right now by telling stories and other things between them that I did not understand. Otherwise, I never liked to disturb them when they were together like that—even so close and you might not notice that they were actually a mother and her son.

My brother, Kaleo—I called him Kak Leo (Kak in Bahasa Indonesia referred to big brother or sister in English. Calling with it sounded politer than calling with a direct name)—looked like me in male version. I could say that because everybody did. He had brown-black short hair—little bit messy, his style, blue ocean eyes—like mine, and asian majority face. Somehow, we had the same skin tone as mama, so we looked paler than any Asians. I should be better to say that he more looked like our father. Unlike us, our father looked more exotic.

How was about mama? You never believed it! My mother was more than 80^th years old but she still looked so young—almost looked like around my age, 24 years old. She had no wrinkles on her skin, had strong muscle, and the top was she was never getting old. Mama had long black straight hair reached her stomach. I never saw her cutting her hair or never knew she had a plan to make it short. She liked the way nature grew on her body and she brought it everywhere. That was the natural beauty inside mama. She was pure and glorious.

I just went to my room to pretend that I did not see anything weird between them. I detected that he hugged the back of mama’s neck while she sat on the sofa and read some recipes in her cooking book. Their ears were touching to each other and their sight seemed to be the same target—the hologram screen. I could not get what they talked about, but I was sure that it was about a recipe mama showed to him. Well, it was a fun fact that Kaleo liked cooking, mama taught him well until he got more experienced than me.

Suddenly, something appeared in my mind. Something brought me into crazy idea about taking a new date. I was hungry about it, what should I called it… perhaps love. I grew with a perfect family full of happiness. I was so happy when I was younger, and I realized something when I grew up into young lady and matured. That was the first time I lost something what I believed it was mine. That was also I felt my own sadness—not others’.

My parents loved me so much, and all my siblings too. They always said that I was a miracle for them. My parents, especially mama, said that my existence completed her life. I heard about her past with papa, and they got very complicated relationship which was actually also happening until now. I did not which part they did for love or just a damn job. That was what I heard and saw. Papa said that he could professionally do his jobs in every time. I could tell after knowing how fast he could change his personality—from a father to an overprotective bodyguard. However, he always showed his father look in front of me rather than any others of his jobs. That was my miracle upon him. Mama said that I had helped her to make my papa feel like human—not a tool.

If the story was true, Kaleo wanted a little sister when he was a little. He imagined to have a young sister that he could call her a princess—because he wanted to the prince who could protect the princess. It was adorable for me to think how cute he was. Everything had changed so fast after that. Kaleo was rumoured dead because papa accidently killed him and caused my mom so depression about papa. With the terrible story before my existence, I was the one who changed everything in their lives even it was for my brother. After Dr Bryant saved his life, papa pushed him to gain motivation to live. What was it? It was mama and me. He lived for both of us.

My others siblings, Vania and Kevin, thanked to me because I brought mama’s smile that they had never seen before. They were twins and the oldest. They had lived with mom for almost twenty years but they never saw mama’s smile so pure and happy. I did not get it at all, but I believed that they meant it so much.

What I expected was actually I could be a miracle for my life.

“Were you jealous back then?” I knew it was Kaleo who came in my room. He already finished with my mom.

“I just didn’t want to disturb any moment between—”

“You and me.” He did say something different what I would say before but I did not care.

He closed my door and walked to come near me. His blue intense eyes keep staring at me which I avoided to look. Then he reached my head and kissed my forehead so deeply. I liked the way he kissed me because I could feel something I needed for now. He caressed my hair well and I laid my head on his upper arm after he sat next to me. I could feel his warmth which I liked the most.

“So, what was that?” he asked. He always knew what I felt.

“I missed him.” I answered.

“That was your decision, Kelly.” He said, like my brother style to advise me.

“I have you.” I said and kept me believe in it. “I have papa and mama, the twins…” at least, in the end I sounded like depression.

“You always feel envy, don’t you?” I could not say anything now. “After everyone had got their partner to fight for and…”

“I feel we have a chance.”